hey yong!!! so happy to see yr post... finally... lol.. hope that u've done well for yrs.. =) i've hv to agree with u that stress is kinda good at times when it pushes u to strive hard and do well... but its too much.. too long... i need a break... a space to breath... maybe its jus me.. maybe its jus that i dunno how to handle.. but i think its too much for me.. *esp when u're studying alone... the feeling sucks!!! it really takes alot to stay focus, to handle the stress, finding out what u dun understand etc etc... failed my first test... arghz... damn... watever... mei hui still expect HD from me.. thats nuts man... this sem, D is already v v gd already... dun like the stuff i'm doing now...
anyway yap!!! I finiah 2nd season of GA already.. cant wait for season 3... haa... i know its kinda bad for the way meredith treated george, but she's also v poor thing... i still love her.. =p must check out mc vet... damn cute as well.. hee..
and yap... few more mths to go and i'll be back!!! remember to book hotel for our christmas party!!! dying to party!!! rules as usual? lol
okie.. time for study... fri exam.... take care too ya... hugs...
Amelia

Hey yue~~!! So sorry i've not been posting and logging in much these days. Just had my exams too... and ya, i know how it must be like for you. Anywayz, stress is a good thing sometimes, so long you are able to keep it within control and don't fall into some depression or something. At least it keeps you going on your studies! Keep it up!

Oh btw, i was looking at the new blog layout... but i can't see any post leh. Or is it i dunno how to see? It's really nice Jos, nice colour and the woman looks so shiok, lying on the beach like no need to work, study, stress, worry.. and all the stuff we have to go through hor! =D

Oh! i was reading bout you guys talking abt Grey's Anatomy?? Correct me if i'm wrong... i think GA is Grey's anatomy right? Anyway, I really like it too and the more i watch, the more i don't like that Meredith leh.. she slept with George! That poor guy... And on Monday, when they were supposed to show GA, they went to show the Emmy's, and then GA also never win. *grumbles*

Yue, it's gonna be end of the year soon... and this means we will be seeing you again!! Was thinking if possible this time, really wanna fly over leh.. Hor girls!! Will try to save some $$ hopefull we can do so. =)

Take care of ya health ya... and pls always remember, that even though i may not seem to be around, you're always be on my mind. Do well for your paper!

Lurve, hugs and kisses
Yong.

lyn, hope that u've done well for yr paper, u always do... =p received SL's call yest night for not updating my current days here... haa.. anyway its really nothing much... still as sucky as ever.. really still the usual stuff that i got to say... reports and up coming exam... think really stressed out..
dream twice with regards to study...first was that i'm busy with my report till the v last day jus b4 my exam and thus not having enough time for my exam... yeaks... wont let it happen... anyway another dream was with hui qin!!! haa... weird rite? i dunno why would be her also... some more with regards to bio... haa... anyway its stuff like realising that i'm having test jus the night b4.. in a few hrs time... damn... didnt realise i'm so stress out... haa i did relax and been watching my GA... dunno... watever...
received email from sis, stace, u mention abt karma and that episode of GA i jus finished was also on karma.. haa... actuall i do agree with u that there is and that maybe i'm in one... you wont realise how isit until u really have a taste of it.. u tot was the best... but till u're in it, it doesnt seems good after all.. instead, sometimes it sucks.... haa so cheer up... they will hv their karma and as long as u hv yr don don thats gd enough... =p
take care u guys... will email u guys abt details update soon after my exams... for now, thats abt it... miss u guys lots lots..
~Amelia~

gosh, reports and more reports huh. Girl, yesh. Wish we could like study together like we use to, over at your place. I'll be sitting for my paper tmr morning. wish me luck man. Med.Micro. urgh! I feel the bacteria invading my brain cells already. lolx. Here's an entry to let you know I'm here to give you some moral support too. Ganbateh! We can pull through, right? *winks.

Love you loads,
joS

finished? maybe... mine? no... y? no idea... maybe the more u wan it to stop, the more it comes to u... but seriously... enough... stop feeding... its jus like animal cell in a hypoosmotic condition... cells take up water, swell and burst... its still within control... stop b4 u cant...
wasted my whole wkend.. damn... 3 reports... when will i get it done? i really dun wish my dream would come true... seriously... too stressful... dream that i handed in all my reports only jus b4 exam and got no time for my studies... and needless to say, i'm going to be killed by the paper... this sem really sucks a big time... god damn lots of reports, till now, yet to hv the time to study...

hey girl.. its always the case... i bet not only us... guess the whole gang feels the same as well since all seems to start their classes already... haa... lots of good lucks for u my dear... haa... u're hardworking, sure to pay off... no worries.. my exam? i really have no idea.. jus hoping for a pass.. the next paper is jus in 2wks time but still got reports to submit.. science... if only u were here... like in poly, we studied at my place throughout the night, with my mom "serving" us, mr whey, our 24/7 on call lecturer... haa.. those were the days.. now we're all on our own... jia you!!!!
anyway guess we got to book the hotel room NOW!!! for our christmas party!!! lol... cant wait to go back and have fun with u guys... missing u guys... everyone of u... for now, lets jus endure and work hard for our studies... till then we can celebrate!!!!

hey girl, looks like we're kinda feeling the same with regards to school stuff. Btw, how are your exams? I'm sure you'll ace it. Its my turn to take my exams next week. Wish me luck, cos I need loads of it. =D

I really miss hanging out with you. Now with school and work going on at the same time, we couldn't quite hangout much when u were back. I wish X'mas was here sooner. And you know why...

Alrite, I gotta head back to my notes and transform into a geek again.
You takecare girl, love you loads... *hugs.

jos misses you.

wth... think i sprain my feet... yah... its feet, not ankle... dun ask me why or when.. i wan to know as well... hai... things nv seems to end.. one after another... man... i'm so out of this... i really cant be bothered so much... my reports are already killing me... i really have no time... felt kinda bad... wanted to talk to her and see how things are... but i'm so dead, yet to finish my report for tmr... so i can only say sorry... jus hope u'll be fine...
wanted to hv a drink this fri and party b4 all the reports and mid sem come crushing on me again... but not all are free.. so think jus postpone till term break... jamie, till then u better join as promise... =) and gd luck for all yr assignments and upcoming exams my friends... jia you...
ok.. enough of slagging.. time to finish up my report... so tired already...
~Amelia*yue*

hey guys.. thanks for all the concern... but i'm over it already, so dun bother to ask any more... i really dun wish to bring it up... thanks... i blog it out jus to let it out, not to keep it within me to let myself feel better.. thats it.. =p
anyway late at this time.. still mugging... for my bio... kinda love this sub... haa.. kinda more than my chem actually... keke... watever it is, jus wanna do well in all...
and lastly to my dear frnz kelly... i jus hope to think through wat u really wan and make a gd choice.. i know its tough but cant drag on... and i really think u shld jus go ahead with wat u really like and wans and really work hard for it.. and if needs a listening ear, i'm jus a call away... take care... and cheer up... *hugs*

~Amelia*yue*

"stabbed"... "slapped" right in the face... wth... over sensitive? come on... dun bother what other thinks but it jus seems diff... may be wrong... whatever... but was really caught off guard...
nothing but complains... =p surelly kanna from ken.. haa.. come on.. give me a space to breath and let out my anger... miss u peeps in sg... dying to get back!!!! sentosa sun tan, night cycling, ktv, supper, swim, shopping, etc... i jus wan to go home...

isit really stupid and naive for being nice? letting pp taking adv, make use etc... wth... at the period of being nice, little did u know that u're jus being a god damn fool... an idoit... yeaks... so disgusted... disappointed... dunno to laugh or cry... arghz... hate myself... jus cant keep my mouth shut! sorry... if i made things worse...

damn... cant finish my paper... dunno how would i fare... sian.. down with sore throat and damn serious headach... feeling so sucky... of all days... tired... arghz... feel like chopping off my head... tot could relax and enjoy abit after today but guess most prob would hv a gd night rest....
hmm... been checking my mail box... but yet to come.. hope will not end up like the previous time... anxious... guess have to wait till next wk... if not... guess i'm jus v suay sia...
hai... gtg for my lab now... so tired... miss u peeps...
~Amelia*yue*

"Don't walk in front of me, I may not follow; Don't walk behind me, i may not lead; walk beside me and just be my friend"... quote from the card that my frnz gave... had a wonderful night... had dinner at Iori.. our usual fav dining place.. all begins with a lovely bouquet of daisies from rus n ern... thanks thanks... love it so so much... jus a typical girl who falls crazily over flowers... keke =p now sitting on a nice vase, loan from Gill... haa.. had the usual fav, salmon sashimi and crab club followed by cake for both xuelin and me... they got this big red candle for us... wa liao, like go bai bai one lo... lol.. on our way back, guess wat? first time... finally i saw shooting star... omg... jumping for joy, not forgetting to make a wish... lol... wat a great day.... then back to college, met aaron... jus by the flowers, he guessed its my birthday... kiss and hug from him... kinda wired... do i know him that well? watever... anyway everyone got to ern's rm and we got our pressie... the polo tee that i've been eyeing for!!! hee... so nice!!! yippie!!!! then chat till 12... aust time... guess wat they did!!! they wanted to throw me into the bin... damn... lucky SRs came to "scold" us... haa... free... then got a call from my lovely kor kor!!! hee... so happy he called... then sl called... and wishes from sms n msn... jus wanna say, thanks everyone... really felt v happy... love u guys lots lots...
okie... happy mmt got to stop... but to studies... so dead... so much to do... not done yet.. so afraid i wont do well this sem... arghz...
~Amelia*yue*

hai... so so much to do... yet to do my tute, reports not finished, test coming!!! i'm so damn stress... really got to stsrt going library mugging lo... die
was suppose to study... but jus cant concentrate... even blusting the music trying relax b4 getting back to work but no help at all.. decided that maybe i needed a walk... went to look for kelly... was really dark and freezing... but was a rite choice... chated for quite some time till abt 1130... think got to go b4 i'm afraid to walk back... haa.. felt so much better... thanks girl.. sorry for bothering you and thanks for the company... its so cold outside... v v strong wind... kinda scary.. lucky still got her on the phone company me for the walk back.. hee.. tot was ok... but felt so guilty bringing stupid matters up, making my frnz upset... i'm really sorry... seeing another frnz looks kinda upset bring my mood down as well.. didnt ask much... but guess i know... jus hope everyone will be fine.. think everyone needed a break... a break from studies, relation.. etc... watever that is bothering u... this is jus part of life... get it over and done with... no matter wat isit now, we have no choice but to study.. parents work hard not for us to come here and enjoy and engaged in other stuff... get yr mind back to studies... i know its easier to be said then to be done.. but guess we jus dont hv a choice...

oats, ginseng and (4scoups of starbucks coffee powder) coffee... totally forgot not to mix with my ginseng... damn wasted... jus anxious to try keep myself awake for class.. and yah.. finally... sucess!!! haa.. but.. nv expect that it would hv the god damn same effect as red bull... feeling like a zombie during class.. felt so sick.. but think its kind of worth it to be awake.. haa... and guess wat... the usual sotong me again... not the first time.. did the wrong pre-lab again.. end up cant have lunch, got to use the time doing it... oats for lunch again... *puke*.. yeaks... sucky day...
rushed to lab immediately... blur... lost.. lucky got video to watch... haa.. oh yah... and guess wat!!! my lab lecturer is called geoffrey!!! yeaks.. *puik!... lol.. =p oops.. haa but guess all of u will agree with me rite.. haa but no la.. he as in this lec is a nice person.. haa.. v helpful...
okie la.. overall jus tired... going to bed soon... tmr going ski!!! wohoo.. hee...
~Amelia*yue*

I know how it feels, i know wat u mean. You fell hard and it hurts.. u tried means and ways to grab and hold, not to fall, but u still did... u tired to cushion yr fall but you failed to aim... why didnt u learn from yr fall? why did u allow yrself to get hurt once more... nv to compare... its all wat u see... it may not be wat it seems... someone who sees the inner u would come by some day... =)

had the usual sucky day... lec as usual... slept early yest, hoping to stay awake in lec today... morning seems so much refresh, but arghz... still the same.. fell asleep in lec once again.. feeling was really sucky... tired all means and ways but nv works... damn... wat shld i do? after lunch, trying to take a nap to keep me awake for the night but jus cant rest my mind... wats wrong with me.. so instead of wasting my time trying to slp, jus woke up to do my work till ern called to play tennis.. not in the mood, but tot shld jus go and relax... but i really sucks at it... getting from bad to worse.. haa.. sorry for wasting yr time.. =p

Anyway.. ~Happy Birhtday sis!!! love you... muackkkk!!!

~Amelia*yue*