its on... ever since he turn it on, it was nv off... when he left, i guess he did... but maybe wasnt tight... it started leaking again... and now... flowing... v frequently again... flooding soon...

i know its kinda irritating... but sorry, i jus feel like saying it once more... this sem SUCKS a big time... right from the start till now!!!

received an email from bro today... recent photos of himself... was v happy... then i notice that he changed... and realise that it been quite some time since we hang out and see each other... suddenly w/o knowing, cheeks are wet once again... damn... wth with me.. damn... homesick... i miss the home... the care, concern, fun, etc... i cant wait for the trip... finally, after yrs that i cant even recall when since the whole family go for a trip... cant wait..

ok... something gd!!!! most prob, edwin's proposal will be tmr at sentosa!!!! wohoo!!! *3cheers... he's a damn gd, romantic guy with a damn nice n swt girl... jus the best match!!! love u da ge, da sao!!!! =)

Happy Birthday "Lao Gong"!!! haa... did yr xiao lao po wish u? haa.. i'll inform her... lol hows yr ktv night? must hv enjoyed yrself bah... somemore with so many hot babes around... lol... today 2nd round? enjoy yrself to the fullest wo... =)v sorry that i cried... hope didnt ruin it in a way or another... it not that hearing u guys having fun making me sad... is jus u guys... everyone of u... from my sis, lao po, kor etc... every single one of u... i'm glad that u wan to bring me to new places to play, i appreciate... but thats not wat i wan.. thats not y i'm sad... its jus a v simple plain reason... its jus u guys... we can do nothing... nothing special... same old places also can... but its jus i wan to be with u guys... i really deeply misses u guys extremely... *hugz hugz*
~yue~

Life sucks a big time... it has been the case for quite some time... i believe u guys have seen from the posts... nothing gd n nice has happen for me... maybe nice n peaceful i dun mind... but it was... it jus got bad n worse... things are so wrong n out of hand... smthin do u jus wish u can die and restart everything? but come on.. every if u do, it doesnt grantee a gd life as well... sucks rite... stuck with this and gotts hang on to it... damn... guess haven been myself lately... been a v bad tempered, moody and sad... yeaks.. horrible... this aint me at all man... gotta go back sg... i need a proper nice life... i miss home...

god damn it!!!! so damn furious! was actually damn tired, been falling asleep, but not for the last lec... was damn furious to fall asleep... bitch!!! yeaks! damn... wah liao... jus because of some bloody concert? WTH!!! why everyone got to follow you??? who the hell u think u are... damn... argh... i'm going to throw a BF over this issue...

damn la... everything jus so wrong for today... and who the hell are u to compare to ern... i made it clear that i'm not free n stop questioning me!!! damn... brainless or wat? hello... y i'm free to play with him n not u? damn... did i? even if its the case is also logical wat!!!! lucky u stop asking, if not u're going to get it straight from me man... count yrself unlucky to ask me today!!! yeaks... argh...

really suay right till the end... even during my bio prac... damn... results sucks... y? no idea... some more its for formal report... damn... and guess wat... got back one of the report... marked by demostrator... wah liao... gave me a pass only... damn... nv in my chem report i got that lo... damn la... wats with bio... and guess wat he wrote? 3 reference out of 4 is from web, thats jus plain lazy!!! damn la... how much time i spend on my reports... so damn irritating... stupid gay... argh!!!

v bad... i know... but jus cant help it... got to let it out... everything happen at one time really sucks... the effect jus build up... jus sucks for the whole damn day...

had been sleeping at 4am for the pass few nights... and waking up like say 9+ 10? damn... so tired... finally today, think i breaking down.. feeling alittle sick now.. maybe cos today wake up too early... sian... chemistry sucks... or rather science in general... haa.. damn reports... argh...anyway...
yippie!!!... went for my 1st driving lesson today... jus the theory... and i passed with jus one attempt and all correct!!! so happy.. really have to thanks ern for helping me... thanks thanks... =) starting of the lesson, i hated the fecilitator so much... make me so pai sei... cos my name wasnt in the list etc... damn... but after that, he was actually kinda fun n nice... but jus dun like him cos he make me so ma lu... haa... then after class, kelly n me was damn hungry... no breakfast n no lunch... then guess wat... when we alight behind canberra center, it was packed with pp outside the mall... i knew smthin wasnt right... cos u would nv hv such a big crowd in canberra... and yap... an alarm was off for damn long.. not sure wat exectly happened but heard from a boss from hidden dragon saying that we cant he there cos got gas leak and flooding etc... no choice but to head to other place for food...

its holiday... but i'm feeling damn stressed up... i'm going to break down again soon... i cant handle... looking at the amount of work i got to submit immediately after holiday, i jus cant help but to fear... having terrible headach... wat a break is this? its killing me... am i really up to it? i really wonder... i'm really struggling... the load is jus way too much... i'm really tired... really... kor, i miss you.. if only you are here...
我真的没那么坚强。。。泪以干了。。。我以累了。。。我只想要一个依靠。。。

cool! wait for my return and we shall start making our 2006 bear... lol... yah.. been talking to sl and called yong jus now... how abt this nov? jus be4 i get back, maybe u guys can come syd for a few days? love to enjoy the wonderful time with u guys... anyway must persuade yong to go for the audition... i need help to search songs for her... help me!!! haa... must make her go... u two do yr best, i've confidence in you guys!!! anyway i cant use skype in my hostel, thats why i yet to add u, but next sem when i move, i'll get in touch with u using skype then.. =)

hey girl, I think thats a cool idea~ A bear a year. We'll probably sew on the year its made and also name them. lolx. Its was really sweet of you to call up juSt to wish us. Ermm.. Yong & I would try our best not to chicken out. wahaaa~ Hey girl, we're all busy with studies and have not contacted each other in a while. But thanks to this blog. At least we're updated on each other's lives. The pics taken make me wanna get out of this island and join you there right now. hahas. Anyhow, takecare of yourself k? Missing you..

Ps: Girl, can i have your skype address?

lyn... why not we make a bear every yr for ourself? maybe for christmas? isit cool? and instead of sewing names on the feet, maybe we sew the yr? isit that cool? haa... another polar bear would be fine with me... i could try making a smaller one... haa.. the kid.. =p anyway guess wat... started knitting again... y? i dunno... Jamie, a hk girl ask me to teach her.. n jus suddenly tot of knitting again.. for whom? i yet to decide.. maybe shld jus keep it... given one... and its gone... the other.. dunno if kor is using... better be...
alot of things changed... we've all grown up... all in uni already... some even working... and jus at this mmt got to know frnz like lyn, yong n sl joining superstar... haa u guys rocks!!! jia you!!! u guys sure can do it... i'll talk to sl!!! must make him go... haa... vin won ntu hall pagent, stacey got bf... xxx (lol, not allowed to spread) got gf again, zhui also got gf liao, da ge getting married soon, meihui engaged etc... so much things happened... dunno wat would more be happening after i finally grad...

OMG girl you get to go to Sydney!!! Did you manage to eat those lovely doughnuts you bought for us the other time? I really miss those leh.... Sigh, if i go i sure buy many many eat until i lau sai, until i puke, until i get a phobia so i won't crave for it again! Hahahah..

Anyways, not bad sia.. you guys can travel to Sydney like that.. maybe you can try travelling to other parts too. BTW, just an update.. i've been influenced by our sister here Ms Joycelyn Ong Shi Ching to go join the Channel U project superstar WITH HER! Ahaha.. Shaoliang signed up but he said last min got something cropped up and can't go. But if you ask me, i think he simply chickened out. Hahaha..

Think i might also chicken out and then just cheer our Ms Joycelyn on hahaha!! opps! ^o^

Its 3 days back... early beautiful morning, xuelin and me were heading to union court meeting up with kelly to go syd for a short break from the stressful mths we had.. damn happy and excited... board the 7am coach and reached syd central station at 1030... gather all the maps and info of places we going to and we head to our hotel.. we walked passed our hotel w/o realising it... maybe cos its a small, un eye-catching entrance... however, when we got in, woohoo... its cheap, nice, new, comfy, excellent view and location... its a good deal... park regis.. will sure stay there if i'm going there again...

after checking in, we when straight to fish market... had seafood for lunch!!! yeah.. been such a long time since i had that... really enjoyed the food... we had oysters (fresh & bake) calamari, sotong etc... yammie!!! then we bought some strawberries... the boss was v nice... feed us honeydew and strawberries.. hee.. then we saw Pelicans!!! so huge!!! but with super ugly eyes.. haa looks like it drawn on...

after lunch, we walked pass darling habour to city... shopped around, scouting for stuff but nv get anything... pinning all hope on th next day... till evening when all the shopes closes, we walked all the way back to darling habour... so so romantic, so nice!!! walking, taking photos, ice cream... love the night... that day ended off with a hk movie in the hotel and Zzzz... damn tired..


second day... w/o wasting anytime... woke up early in the morning, shower, prepare and birkenhead!!! shopping time... spend the whole day there... got really nice stuff.. but most of it are still kinda ex... then back to hotel to put our stuff and walked to The Rocks... where the opera hs etc is located.. wanted to go pancakes on the rocks but was closed... darling habour and opera hs is a must must to go... kelly and me were talking abt wedding then... if only... so nice... so romantic.. so damn ex as well.. lol... anyway the night in syd was rather scary... felt unsafe, thus when night falls, wanted to go luna park, a theme park across the habour bridge but was cancelled... next time... kelly n me had our crazy time back in the hotel... wish we were still there...


the last day... we were still hanging around city area to get the stuff we saw on the first day and then head off to bondi junction to get kelly's shoes... guess wat... the guy in Onitsuka Tiger is so damn cute, friendly with damn sexy voice also.. asian mix... ahhh... damn cute... after getting her shoes, we wanted to go back to the shop to take photo with him but he wasnt there already... sad.. but to think back, if he was really there, would we really do it? haa... no idea.. but he's really damn hot.. keke... anyway had my fav cakes!!!! yummy... i really must learn to bake more... anyway bondi junction is a really high end shopping centre.. too ex for us, so didnt really bother to walk all b4 we head back to city... oh yah.. we went there via train... damn scary... i wont ever take their train again if its possible.. somemore b4 that, a lady told us that someone died there recently... so afraid something would happen... Eeeekkk.... okie... our trip ended off with shoes, tops blah blah blah... sian... canberra again...

*check out the online photos... will post all up soon.. =)
~Amelia

Received an email from a colleague and found it very meaningful, so decide to share with you girls.. Btw Yue, if you really feel stressed, then take some time to slow down abit, and like you said, take a break... Or else later you'll go nuts, alright? =P

PEOPLE COME INTO YOUR LIFE FOR A REASON
> I am sending this to you to see how many actually read their e-mail.
>Your response will be
>interesting. Pay attention to what you read. After you have finished
>reading it, you will know the reason it was sent to you.

Here goes: People
>come into your life for a reason, a season or a lifetime. When you know
>which one it is, you will know what to do for that person. When someone is
>in your life for a REASON, it is usually to meet a need you have expressed.
>They have come to assist you through a difficulty, to provide you with
>guidance and support, to aid
>you physically, emotionally or spiritually. They may seem like a godsend
>and they are. They are there for the reason you need them to be.

Then,
>without any wrongdoing on your part or at an inconvenient time, this person
>will say or do something to bring the relationship to an end. Sometimes
>they die. Sometimes they walk away. Sometimes they act up and force you to
>take a stand. What we must realize is that our need has been met, our
>desire fulfilled, their work is done. The prayer you sent up has been
>answered and now it is time to move on.
>
>
> Some people come into your life for a SEASON, because your turn has come
>to share, grow or learn. They bring you an experience of peace or make you
>laugh. They may teach you something you have never done. They usually give
>you an unbelievable amount of joy. Believe it, it is real. But only for a
>season.!
>
>
> LIFETIME relationships teach you lifetime lessons, things you must build
>upon in order to have a solid emotional foundation. Your job is to accept
>the lesson, love the person and put what you have learned to use in all
>other relationships and areas of your life. It is said that love is blind
>but friendship is clairvoyant. Thank you for being a part of my life,
>whether you were a reason, a season or a
>lifetime.